
So I'm not one who likes to post about profound "deep" subjects. I like to keep it light around here however I've been thinking a lot lately about some things and some recent events made me think I should share my feelings on the gospel and how I am grateful that we have it in our life. So I apologize in advance for the long post...
I honestly don't know where I would be today if I hadn't made the decision back in 1998 to spend some time reading and studying the Book of Mormon. I was 18 and a college freshman and I thought I knew everything I needed to know about life (doesn't every 18 year old?). Reading the Book of Mormon changed my life. Now almost ten years later I am so grateful for that decision I made - and for the promptings from my mom, who told me I should read it. I've read it a couple times since then and I read it each day now. I've noticed that days I forget to read I seem to have less patience and feel more unhappy. I am so glad I have the opportunity to read and study the scriptures each day and by doing so invite a good spirit into my home.
I am so glad that I know that families can be together forever. Not just in this life but the next. It's such a comforting thing to know. I hear about shootings, natural disasters, accidents on the news and I am so glad I know this information. How scary life would be if I went though out life and never knew if I would see my loved ones again. Wade is flying to Utah this week for his Grandmother's funeral but we believe this isn't a sad thing, we are all happy that she can return to our Heavenly Father and be with her husband again. Yes, we will miss the times we could have spent with her, but we will be with her again. I've been so some funerals for people not of my faith and most of them were very sad events. I can't imagine how sad I would be if something happened to Wade or my boys, but would also know that if I lived the right way I could be with them for all eternity.
I never really stop to think about how blessed I am that Heavenly Father has trusted me to raise two healthy boys. We know some people who have lost babies, have special need children, or children with illnesses. Every time I pray for them I also count my blessings. Even though Gage might be a handful at times, he is healthy. Each year when we take him for the check up on his heart I see the other children in the office and count my blessings that Gage has never had surgery and his defect has never gotten worse. I joke about Noah's weight but am secretly so happy that he is just as strong and healthy as his brother.
Some of you might know I teach the girls in our church's youth group each Sunday. The past couple weeks the lessons we have been talking about focus on fulfilling women's divine rolls. I know I can be a complainer about some mommy things (cleaning up throw up, sick kids, etc). but I am so glad that I belong to a church that teaches the youth how rewarding being a mother and a homemaker can be. I loved this quote from President Kimball:
“No matter what you read or hear, no matter what the differences of
circumstances you observe in the lives of women about you, it is important for
you Latter-day Saint women to understand that the Lord holds motherhood and
mothers sacred and in the highest esteem. He has entrusted to his daughters the
great responsibility of bearing and nurturing children.
“This is the great, irreplaceable work of women. Life cannot go on if women cease to
bear children. Mortal life is a privilege and a necessary step in eternal
progression. Mother Eve understood that. You must also understand it. …
“Much is said about the drudgery and the confinement of the
woman’s role in the home. In the perspective of the gospel it is not so. There
is divinity in each new life. There is challenge in creating the environment in
which a child can grow and develop. There is partnership between the man and
woman in building a family which can last throughout the eternities”
(“Privileges and Responsibilities of Sisters,” Ensign, Nov. 1978, pp. 105–6).
I really love the part that says there is a challenge in creating the environment in which a child can grow and develop. How true that is! It's easy to turn on Thomas the Train non-stop everyday. It's easy to feed my kid junk food and let him eat whatever he wants. It's easy to let him think it's okay to yell at me, or hit other kids, but it truly is a challenge to teach him the right way to live.
So to wrap it up, (because I think I could write forever today) I want to thank my mom for her promptings nine years ago. I know my parents tried about everything with me - and yes, most of it did actual sink in. If it hadn't I can only guess as to where I would be right now but I'm almost positive my life would not be as peaceful as it is right now. Kudos to Wade's mom for raising a faithful young man who is such a great husband that I can be with throughout eternity. Good luck to all of us who are still raising our families. May Heavenly Father bless us to do it well and successfully.